LIFE IS A BITCH

Sunday, April 30, 2006 , 8:08 pm

talked to my cousin. lol. an extract of our conversation:

cuz: oie. wah. hus is dat pretty girl?
me: nth la. sum1 i like?
cuz: wa. she noe how to cook etc mah?
me: er.. i think no? oops =x hahax. y leh?
cuz: wa. lidat how she going to take care of u next time?
me: har? =.= then wat u wan in a girl?
cuz: she muz noe how to cook how to do laundry how to do all household chores. muz oso noe how to take care of parents and most impt, take care of me.
me: wa piang. lidat u need to go japan lo.
cuz: y leh? japan girls so good 1 ar?
me: haha. no la. the robots there are better. =p
cuz: -_____________________-"

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walan. mapled the whole day. SAMUEL LIM. tml u better study ar... (okie -.-) hahax. im missing u badly. monday cant see. DIE! =( lol.. most prob every page of my textbook gonna appear ur face. tai xiang ni le. =x hoho!

my mouse spoil ar!!! walan. the wire spoil. ytd use till sot sot. LOL. call me cute genius pig man! wahaha. i disassemble my mouse and i go find my old logitech mouse and disassemble it oso. and then! wahaha. i exchanged the wires la of coz... it works! wahaha. wo zhen li hai. den i notice my current mouse got a piece of weigth inside lor. i removed it. so heavy lor! now without the weight, my mouse is so light. oh dear. im really a genius. WAHAHA. ok la ok la. so are u, my cuter genius pig. haha. we rock!

`cuter VS cute. cuter always wins.
thats a biased statement. =p

xoxo ♥

, 1:46 am

hv u guys ever came across this: my life is full of ups and down, so interesting.

lol. it really is to me. one day up another day down. bleh. im a messsed up fool. hahax. cheers to my life and i promise i will love the yesterdays of my life even though its bad.

xoxo ♥

, 1:31 am

walan. a guy loving a girl is already messy enuf. but... er. wapiang. dunno how to say. sorry to this so called colin and kero. but hv u ever wondered how gays click? as in how gays find their gay partner?

gay1(to a guy): hi, can we stead?
guy: WALAN U SEOW AR?

that shud be the normal reaction rite? den how sia....

mebbe it must hv been a long story. i wun interfere. sorry guys. i din meant to mock at u. but im juz curious ok? for the pple hu are reading my blog. http://colinandkero.blogspot.com/ this is where my curiosity starts. lol cuterpig showed me this and i was reading it. she said OMG and i read it. i tot it was too mushy dats y she OMG.

i read and this came onto my mind..
wa.. this girl luv his bf so much till so rou ma sia. lol.. how i wish.. =x
hahax. i wun say more. u guys noe wat i mean.

THEN hor i scroll down. WALAN. when i got the picture of wats going on. I CLOSED LOR. really sorry. not wanting to hurt u guys la. but. >.< really is shou bu liao.

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cuterpig:
ok now featuring u le. i juz wan u to be happy. whether u are wif me anot. u need to adjust ur mindset abit la... not trying to scold u. but, its abit negative lor. be more like me lar. more towards positive. u will love ur life more and u will talk to pple nicely more. u will even be more forgiving. i must admit, u are REALLY pretty (u mesmerised me the first time i notice u lor). wun it be a waste if u dun luv urself or respect urself? quarrel wif parents is part and parcel of life. stress is oso part and parcel of life. its how u wanna cast them aside and move on. im not saying im so good la. so powerful and etc stuff. but im juz trying to help u out. i helped myself out. nobody helped me when i was in state of depression in my sec2-3(1st) life. i pulled myself together and got out of those nonsense. my mum talked sense to me and i talked sense to her. she is not so ba dao anymore and im not so unfilial anymore. mebbe ur parents are hard to approach but mebbe u can approach it by building ur tolerance and acting lor. when they scold u, u tolerate but dun show it all out that u are tolerating. speak wif them normally still. that all i can help. wanna change anot is up to u ler. i hv faith in u dat u will change for the better. u are not stubborn like me. even the stubborn me changed. i think so shud u.

`cutepig <3 cuterpig.

xoxo ♥

Friday, April 28, 2006 , 11:53 pm

if only... haiz. wat if... haiz. but... haiz. =x wun say bout those stuff again. at least till MYE ends. my brain is full of studies + u + my personal problems. so messed up la. entangled troubles. need to study ler samuel lim! yes i start liao la. lol. hv u guys started yet? today vijay gave me a post card wif a note on it. she said im doing well and she thinks i can breathe thru my MYE. ok. cool. but my english! WILL DIE AR! mock english test dunno is too tired. or too troubled. i cant thnk of a shit ok... i wrote bullshit and i handed in bullshit. zzz. muz read more stories get inspiration liao. wahaha. this week got practical exam for comb science. i so pro. i memorised QA notes in 5mins. omg.

felt so good shooting MOT in their arse. wahaha. help u bao chou le leh cuterpig! today kinda long day... had some incidents. dun wanna share. thx jeremy for being there for me. and helping me find out wat i wanna noe. thx to u. i got a grip of the situation now at least. i dunno if im sensitive or wat. i juz feel u are running away. but at the same time u are not. very wavey. my heart gonna be powdered soon if it breaks like that almost everyday.

wahaha. SPASTICITY. jun jie, jeremy and me. HAHAX1 we did the "cant touch me" dance in class today and we looked like fools. omg.. really fools. =P

<3 mahself and u. =)

xoxo ♥

Tuesday, April 25, 2006 , 9:29 pm

im sorry. heex. i nv fail to make u happy and u nv fail to cheer me up. but i mean my words though. its not out of anger.

xoxo ♥

, 4:06 pm

i wanna share my thoughts. i need a listener. really cant find any1. yes got jeremy. but tell him liao i awlays get the same consolation. dun wna those. really dun wan. i wan sum1 hu can really undertand. really really understand.

im tired. i really am. issit so hard to get a place in ur heart? i really dunno la. u chose him coz hes there b4 me. shudnt u be choosing over hu is better? if hes better i wud definitely back off. wat for have u and u wun hv a good life. tmd. im so pissed wif myself. samuel u disgust me. yes u do. its always him and not me. coz he will get angry if its me. i noe u trying ur best. and im trying hard too. to noe the fact that wat i m to u. but then, haiz. yeah i got my frenz. but u noe how it feels like to be wif them and be thinking bout u all the time? it sux. u see ur frenz smiling and laughing their asses off. then urself down there in deep thoughts. hving some jealousy. hving something missing. u will feel hollow u noe? thats wat i always felt. HOLLOW. really hollow. "do wat?" anything lor. ni dong wo de xin hen tong mah? u told me u accept him under class's pressure. i hate it man. everytime i think of it. now then u accept the fact liao, it even hurts more. i keep quiet for so long. now i really bth liao. i juz wanna burst.

i juz wanna clear my mind and fall into deep slumber. let u forget me. let myself off this misery. leave my frenz my family and all. then i start my new life. back into my crazy lifestyle. back to the wanna-kill-go-ahead style. im stressed out by everything. fucking life i hv. so wat if i hv money. hu is there to share it wif me? no one man. no one. so wat if i spend it alone. no feeling 1. i rather be poor. i rather not hv a good life but hv u wif me.

im already controlling myself. dun over possessive. dun. im not liao. sometimes ask u out juz for a meal oso hard. although i dun really noe the real reason behind it. but i agar agar oso noe wats on ur mind. yes it must be him. im on the verge of eradication. im on the verge of my tolerance. im on the verge of my anger, my jealousy, my life. im unwanted. im lost. im screwed.

go ahead and laugh at my stupidity.
FUCK IT.

xoxo ♥

Thursday, April 20, 2006 , 9:14 pm

haiz. wat a busy and stressful week. can die man. 1st is maths paper2 mock exam. then is napfa today. then tml? muz check dnt folio and got dnt test. walan. wat can not more be stressful than my dearest dnt. shit liao la. stupid artefact. use 1 so FUCKING big piece plastic do press forming and it broke. i very depress liao man. i dunno whether i will be given another piece anot. i noe its waste of material. but i really tried my best not to go into mistakes liao lor. walan.

after sch today went bubble tea shop wif my bros. wat we did? talk cock lor. wat else. lol. talk about so many weird things esp the supernatural. we wanna challenge the supernatural hen we hv the chance to this year. its gonna be so fun and scary. haha. damn bo liao la.

ps: to all the pple. i hv very little tolerance for stare. dun force me ty.

`love my cuterpig!

xoxo ♥

Friday, April 14, 2006 , 12:54 am

revived my com. lost all my pics and 1 partition went missing. z retrieving all of them now. 20hrs liao! hur hur...

yes dar. promise no fighting. ok. at most i tok to those pai kias if they confront u. i will risk as long as u dun get hurt. bloody morons. so free go flame pple blog. tmd. no life.

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today sprots day. congrats dar on getting 5th. lol. u didnt get last. hahax. see told u to do ur best. hahax. i wonder did u do the standard start off? thx to me leh! i taught u lor. hahax.

may u be crusified and burn in flames of hell with numerous impales to the person hu took cuterpig's fone. =)

miss u dar`

xoxo ♥

Sunday, April 09, 2006 , 6:50 pm

juz came home. kinda tired. hahx. went shopping wif cuterpig and her fren. i dunno how to spell her name. oh wells. hahax. went round and round bugis in search of a bday present. i really dun quite like the feeling of pple telling me she belongs to someone. oh crap. she's mine too then.

w/e. anyways enjoyable day. tml go cut hair liao. and u shall see cuterpig. that there is HAIR MUD. really got lor. dun wan quarrel wif u over this liao. it shall all end tml. HEHE.

xoxo ♥

Wednesday, April 05, 2006 , 5:38 pm

im sorry. im not able to go support u at the sports heat. yes im pissed wif that supplementary. tmd end so late. every moment i was in that class room. my blood is boiling. cb. let me warn u fucking assholes 1 last time. there is a limit to wat i can tolerate bout wat u say to me bout her.

and to that bitch hu always send me out of class. watch out bitch. im so getting u into deep soup wif the fucking ass school.

xoxo ♥

, 5:36 pm

Taurus and Pisces

When Taurus and Pisces come together in a love affair, it's generally a happy union. They are two positions apart within the Zodiac, and such Signs tend to have karmic ties and a deep empathy for one another. While Pisces is idealistic, dreamy and impressionistic, Taurus is more down-to-earth and practical. They're both nurturers, however, and both prize harmony and stability in a relationship.

These two Signs have much to offer one another. Taurus can provide the grounded approach Pisces needs to put all those dreams into action, and Pisces can offer the kindness, gentleness and sweet sympathy that Taurus so loves in a lover. At times, Taurus can't understand Pisces's seemingly simplistic life view; in reality, of course, Pisces isn't simple at all. Still waters truly run deep, in this case.

Taurus is ruled by Venus (Love) and Pisces is ruled by Jupiter (Luck) and Neptune (Illusions). When Venus and Neptune meet, a beautiful spiritual connection is made. Both of these celestial bodies vibrate with feminine energy. Together, they represent an idealistic relationship which borders on the divine. Jupiter adds its masculine energy to the combination; this Planet represents philosophy, expansion and excesses. These two Signs together can produce the kind of union both dream of; it may seem like heaven on Earth to both. The downside? This kind of heady, dreamy connection can be rooted in just that -- dreams, illusions, fantasy.

xoxo ♥

Monday, April 03, 2006 , 6:55 pm

today, im gonna blog and im gonna RANT RANT AND RANT! tmd.

was walking out of the sch gate wif a freaking fine weather lor. was checking my phone found a miss call. i called back, and it started to drizzle.
junjie: eh wanna pia anot? green light leh.
me: mai la... relax la.. drizzle oni.. when we reach mr prata den rain will pour 1. relax...

*POURS*
-on the fone-

me: walao eh!!!!! cb la... sian diao.

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then eat finish i forgot to take my wallet. suay lor damn suay. heng go back the uncle return me and nth is lost. thx to the pple on the way who tell me bout my wallet.

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WORST OF THE WORST for the day. tmd. SUPER PISSED. the flyover was flooded lor. then i got off the bus wif jun jie and we ~~walked~~ CLIMB across. zz. became part time spiderman and we both got our shirt filled wif sand and shits. so dirty!!!! angry angry. im gonna post a pic of the situation soon. im so pissed now.

missing u. abit too much =x

xoxo ♥

, 1:02 am

haiz. mebbe its not fated. ok. no date for me. nvm ba. i will wait k? =) doesnt really matter. i juz hope u could share a little bit of my bday joy when it comes. u noe wat to do lar hor? =p thx for rmbring my bday miss cutie! zhen li hai. see 1 time oni can rmbr liao. hahax. i think its my turn to go rmbr urs. although there is so many days in a year i will still try my best to rmbr that particular day de. >.<

we will find another time ok? hahx. hope it will be soon.
damn. this became a note for u liao. doesnt matter. tralala. =p

-meeting u is a blessing, liking u is my destiny. and i love this destiny.

xoxo ♥

Sunday, April 02, 2006 , 2:39 pm

oh great. my sch life is gonna crumble soon. i can feel it. sian la... results like sai lidat. abit demoralising. finally im worried! haha. i hope thats a good sign and i will work hard to improve on my results.

but then. very jialat lor.
english fail, chinese fail, den my dnt i got b4. WTF ok?
wats worse. i starting to not understand anion and cation of chem. sibei jialat liao. im still ok wif physics and so on. maths... er. the rotation thingy, is rotating my mind liao. =.= HELP ME!!!

i will work hard. i hope u will oso ok? u better dun gimme fails for ur EOY ar... study till panda oso nvm. i wun spite u 1. most prob im gonna be the next zombie during the 2nd semester. GBM! god bless me!

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MAPLE IS GOOD! haha. i noe i very qian da. above say wanna study below wan play game. lol. cant ctrl la! its an addiction. zzz. ytd stupid lor. GM play prank on us. APRIL FOOL guys. -.-! thank you asses. yay i lvl59 liao. happy happy. ^^v.

haha. i looking forward to monday.

xoxo ♥

Saturday, April 01, 2006 , 6:57 pm

*wipes my blog* wa so dusty. long time no blog. haha.

1st! im addicted to maple again. zzz. hus fault? meiyi ur fault! =x haha no la. partly me and my frenz.
zhong: "liang lvl wat le?"
liang: "80 liao lor"
me: *0.0 omg. im jealous.*

then my fren decided to hand over me a lvl58 mage. haha. ok. -even more addicted now-

2nd! pls la pple. wan suan oso dun suan those things bout her ok. dun piss me off lor. say anything bad bout me but not her. thx.

3rd! dnt! can start work liao. so happy. in the end we still manage to start work at about the same time. hehe. goodluck 4F.
me: "cher ur class (4F) start work ready not?"
lee: "no leh. help me motivate them leh."
me: "haha. my class oredi kena mr lee.hl suan till cannot suan liao. how u wan us motivate sia?"

dats y i say. 4F good luck. =)

4th! actually nth much. im juz waiting. the wait is getting sour and it is starting to hurt.

xoxo ♥