took my pills... its like 4th day liao. still not showing improvements of my conditions.

hais. i got stabbed again. deep into the middle of my heart after hearing wat jem told me. im jealous. pure jealous the whole freaking day. i really just wish u wud talk to me again. everything i said that were harsh really had no intention at all. i just cant bear to do it. u think im that bad ma? we were quarrelling that day and the moment u said ur eyes cant see a thing. my heart really sank and melted. i was angry and i was suddenly soft hearted again. its not i did not wanna care. im just stucked in between 2 emotions.

i had enough of putting this freaking strong front la ok. all i want now is just for u to talk and treat me normally. im not being girly or wat ok. im just following wat my heart is telling me. im not doing this on purpose to gain ur sympathy. seriously im lost of words and lost totally.

`i yearn. everything to be normal.

xoxo ♥