LIFE IS A BITCH

2009-01-18T20:41:00.000+08:00

been MIA for quite a while. well i watched alot alot alot of movies! wahaha! update the list soon.

2009-01-13T20:24:00.000+08:00

i miss/love/adore/fucking my ps2. cos i miss Final Fantasy XII. dammit. its not completed and i goddamn miss it. i also havent play FFX-2. DAMMIT. time to plug back in my ps2. and keep it running! WOO. hope it runs.. hope it goddamn runs.. (:

2009-01-13T15:12:00.000+08:00

help me..... help. me.

h e l p m e . . .

www.how-to-cure-flu.com

2009-01-13T04:09:00.004+08:00

oh yeah. forgotten that there is another movie that i watched few days back. haha.

Transporter 3credits: wikipedia

this movie is great. another action/fighting movie. i always loved the driving part. but i guess the storyline aint as solid as the 1st one anymore. its starting to drift from its title. but well. its still great considering the fighting and the driving. haha!

ever wondered why i never rated movies? thats because i would rate 5/5 for all of them. haha! didnt i told you i love movies. esp those that i watch? (:

2009-01-13T03:34:00.004+08:00

so long no blog. have been sleeping and sleeping like a log. watched 2 movies the other day, will cover that later.

I AM FALLING ILL! ):

any tlc out there? i need as many as possible. im having flu! stupid shiat. hais. done bout my illness. somethings on my mind now. shant elaborate too much. just gonna say, i think i will take a step back and never to talk to you again. im sick of it.

my english dramas/sitcoms are awesome! they have been keeping me company the past few days! awesome right? hehe. i know. now to the movies. i watched...

Ip Man credits: wikipedia

Red Cliff Part 2
credits: asian movie wikipedia

hehe. im a happy kid now that i can strike off 2 movies from my list. ip man was nice. esp the fighting part. so anticipating the fighting part in the movie. as for red cliff part 2. its awesome. love it to the max. dynasty wars, my favourite! the explosion and battle clashes are spectacular. its hilarious too when it comes to zhugeliang. haha! the "arrow collecting" part was way funny. (:

ok. its late. im off! (:

2009-01-10T10:24:00.003+08:00

working at a roadshow at funan. extremely tempted to buy a laptop. ): im constantly challenging my mind by thinking that the laptop sucks, the prices sucks, the following IT show is coming soon. haha... it aint working that well i guess.

bout the other day, caught a movie with gen. i swear i almost froze to death man. seriously the cinema management doesnt do temperature control of the cinema? and i noticed there is this one guy watching the show alone, "eh, you look. he is freezing too! haha!" yup. that lonely guy was hugging himself, shivering and rubbing his arms. constanly. last but not least. the movie lasted 3 hours.

credits: wikipedia

Australia it is, i only understood part of the movie plot. only realised the plot when i tried very hard to use my brains to think. it was too cold to make my brain function properly. well definitely the guy was awesome. heh. wolverine leh! (:

now i wanna watch Red Cliff 2. who's in!?

2009-01-08T12:17:00.003+08:00

LOL. im hired again. by microsoft, but a different department.

dont my great links rocks? all i need now is proper cert with proper knowledge of how industries works. and i will get my ass on my family business.

and just when i thought i can catch another episode of How I Met Your Mother Season 2, my supervisor aka friend called.

"get your ass down to funan now. my stock is here alr."

damn. i guess. im off to work now. cya world.

2009-01-07T09:21:00.002+08:00

lets get this straight. 9.21am. on a badass tight schedule. schedule for this morning would be...

10am: reach office return stuff. (YEAH I QUIT)
1130am: reach TM for my new year haircut?
1230pm: done with hair. so will be waiting period.
1pm: meet gen.

oh dear god. pls make her wake up and not be late and spare my waiting.

oh yeah. dear god, please. and i really mean PLEASE! dont let me see people i dont wanna see in the office. (: pls be nice to me.

ok im almost late. hope my supervisor dont be later than me like always. darnit.

2009-01-06T05:30:00.002+08:00

Got a brand new iPhone. went to singtel today to do a replacement of my phone for $439. zzz. my wallet feels so empty now. my mum's gonna nag. Apple you suck. you made my day miserable.

hope everything turns out well...

2009-01-05T15:00:00.000+08:00

FUCK LA! I DROPPED MY IPHONE! NOW THE SCREEN CRACKED ALR! CCB!

2009-01-05T14:48:00.002+08:00

fuck it. its raining and i dont care! i have to leave hse today. cant stand it anymore. staying at home for 4 days! its go out or die. wondering if i should go kbox later. WAHAHA.

enjoy bitches! cos i know im gonna enjoy myself today.

2009-01-04T09:18:00.010+08:00

look at the time now. i havent even catch my sleep lol. im nocturnal now. driving lessons at 1045 later. crap. means no sleep for me anymore. haha.

anw. caught 2 shows this early morning. now. im far more motivated to catch Transporter 3.

Transporter

credits: wikipedia

Transporter 2

credits: wikipedia

yup. transporter 1 and 2. now im ready for 3. haha. its about time i go prep myself for my driving lessons! i dun wanna fail my practical. I WANNA DRIVE LEGALLY!

2009-01-04T04:52:00.005+08:00

I TOTALLY LOVE THIS!

oh yeah baby. next time. do it in front of me! (:

2009-01-02T23:18:00.000+08:00

ok time to blog.

new year eve.

i went to quite a number of places. at first i met jeremy and gang, my bros. went to central at clarke quay to meet up. then decided to take walk down to liang court as vanda wanted to eat. the crowd and atmosphere of new year eve tehre was fantastic. after that we walked back trying to catch some fireworks. but nah. saw a cheap peek of it only. then vernon called to meet up to go clubbing. you know, i cant resist babes and alcohol can i? however i still followed jem and gang back to the hotel that we were supposed to spend overnight at.

part 2 of the night. (the havoc)

met up with vernon at zouk. it was freaking full house. so we went to the new MOS instead. its called Zirca. its supposed to be 21 for guys to enter? somehow the bouncer let us in. lol. clubbed for a moment and found out that theclub was total shit. so we went to search for other places. walked around clarke quay and boat quay and then in the end. we ended up back to zouk. we manage to get our way thru to zouk by entering from velvet underground. so we clubbed at zouk. drink drank drunk. nah not drunk at all. haha. also went to phuture to have a quick dance. manage to see one of my friend working there.

part 3.

back to the hotel to meet up with jem and gang to talk cock play and sleep. unfortunately when im back. they all turned into zombie and alr tired. so they slept. and i only managed to sleep when its around 10am. haha.

the end.

2009-01-02T09:30:00.008+08:00

EMMA ROBERTS!

i love you!

credits: wikipedia

>haha just done watching Nancy Drew. now that i cant wait for Nancy Drew 2 which is coming this year. 2009! haha. and i am so gonna catch Hotel for Dogs. just because she is starring the show. she is the cutest and sweetest girl ever. PERIOD!

2009-01-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

i wanna blog bout my countdown celebrations. but im so lazy to upload my pics. haha. gimme more rest 1st. update to come.

2009-01-01T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR! yes i am outside now. love you guys who are always with me. i do not have much friends but i know the limited friends i have are true!

Enjoy this brand new day of 2009 everyone!

2008-12-31T07:51:00.001+08:00

haha. now i cant stop thinking of emma roberts. im gonna start downloading Nancy Drew. JUST TO SEE HER! (:

2008-12-31T05:21:00.007+08:00

i cant sleep. so. i do have to find an activity right. so again, i watched movie myself. haha. this time i watched...

credits: wikipedia

WILD CHILD BABY. after watching the show, im so in love with emma roberts now. haha. what a sweet babe she is. she's just 17 young! how i wish she was my gf. ):

awww aint she sweet. (:

today is the last day of 2008, im gonna spend it to the FULLEST! and i really mean fullest. minimum sleep and maximum enjoyment. sorry 2009, i aint welcoming you too warmly this time, cos you make me a year older and dragging me out of my teens. moreover, i need to enter army in 2009 i guess. dammit. 2008 HURRAY!

p.s i know my new blog song is bitchy and making me a gay. sorry. i just love it.

2008-12-30T22:07:00.001+08:00

i woke up at 7pm. LOL. so i have nothing to blog for the day. period.

maybe i do. WALAO! someone blardy hell watch YesMan with me leh. ):

2008-12-29T13:22:00.002+08:00

Sunday:

went to kelvin's hse. slacked. and played games and fell asleep.
rushed company report.
played L4D and DotA. (as usual)

Today:

walao. i swear im becoming zombie soon la at this rate. too bad i just cant resist the fun, playing games with friends till 6/7am. haha! woke up early in the morning at 1030am to go work. well i think i hv resoluted. i shall quit my job. and start slacking till my army comes le.

which also means... IM DAMN FREE. so anyone who wanna go out. just gimme a call. well perhaps i might even look for YOU if you guys dont look for me. heh. pardon me eh.. i just hate being bored. ):

EXPENDITURES!
ok. im not planning to change any phone at the moment. but i will touch on HTC Touch HD. definitely. currently looking for a good 8MP camera phone to replace my n95. also. heading to korea soon, will be spending tons of cash there. hopefully my mum sponsor. if not. there goes my savings. I NEED TO WATCH MOVIE BADLY. so many shows im missing out. time to call kakis up.

TATA!

2008-12-27T18:45:00.003+08:00

home the whole day again. woke up quite late. well finished Tropic Thunder alone. haha.

credits: wikipedia

gonna go for my daily routine of L4D again. and i think my work. i think im almost dead tmr. procrastinated till like hell. LOL. haha. off to game!

i miss you dearly.

2008-12-27T00:37:00.002+08:00

this year's toughest xmas gift to get...

MANGO DRESS!

i swear its darn awkward to join the females in the shop during the sales period. whereas im like choosing a dress together with 4/5 females beside me. haha. so awkward. but i still manage to get my way thru. (: thanks jas. haha!

2008-12-27T00:24:00.002+08:00

a belated post bout christmas @ kelvin's. ]

haha. as usual. celebrations still goes on every single year. but this year is unfortunately dead i guess. only me, weifeng, weilong, kel's gf (zhihui) and kel was there to celebrate. usually the celebration will be flooded with 12pax minimum. haha.

we had kel's mum specialty. pork spaghetti and tons of hams. lol and we even ordered pizza. so we were eating the spags and got really darn full. so we were hoping the pizza dun come anytime sooner. then we heard a motorbike downstairs...

*vrooom..*
kel: oh shit. i think thats the pizza guy.
me: fuck.... im full.
zh: me too.
wf: *speechless*
*vrooom*
me: heng ah.. the motor zao liao. not pizza guy.
all: heng ah..
kel: eh skarli the pizza guy pillion rider how? he got off then the friend go somewhere else deliver.
me: fuck you. dun suay mouth.

apparently kel was facing me and the door to his hse is behind him.
*pizza guy walks to the gate/door*
me: OH FUCK! *laughing with my eyes wide open*
kel: ???
*turns around*
kel: HAHAHAHAHAHA
all: OMG! HAHAHA!

oh man. its freaking suay mouth la. in the end no1 touched the pizza till supper. and till the next morning. we just keep eating. trying to finish up alll the food.

activies there:
Left4Dead
DotA
laughing bout secondary sch ~~life~~ havoc events.

well i very much wish to share the events. but its just tto many. you see. mischieviouus sec sch kids have the most outrageous and hilarious events in sch. haha!

im off to skype with kel and wf and to game!

2008-12-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS! TO ME AND TO EVERYONE OF COURSE!

but well. it aint as merry as i thought it is. a lonely start of xmas for me. ):

2008-12-24T19:18:00.001+08:00

jialat. lately my bones are getting lazy. i think i gamed too much over the night. hahaha! tonight will be another long night. i wonder how am i going to celebrate my xmas tmr. going to zouk later for countdown! WEE! see you guys there if any of you is going. (:

TATA! off to prepare!

2008-12-24T06:18:00.003+08:00

woo. just done playing L4D and dota. 6am alr lol. there will be ompany xmas celebration ~~tmr~~ later in the morning at 11.30am at centre point. i guess i should go sleep now. i dead tired.

and im going korea soon! hopefully everything goes well. im going to see snow! wahaha gen. pls be jealous. :p

saranghae!

2008-12-23T12:29:00.004+08:00

back from work. aww. aint it early? im home for a nap! anw had a great laugh with junjie ytd. insanely funny lor him. well its normal aint it? missed the times we used to have when we were in sec sch.

the 4 musketeers. dominating the 4 corners of the classroom. communicating across the whole classroom over lame stuff and jokes. haha! it got so out of hand teachers had to plan to put us at one corner of the classroom to havoc among ourselves. HAHA! but however mrs vijay felt that junjie had hope and wanna salvage him. so she seperated him from us. BUT nobody knows that junjie is the worst la. making us laugh and shits. oh i missed those days. confiscated kettle, taupok in class, crashing into metal cupboard (narnia), locking pple up in OHP closet and infinite toilet breaks (toilet was beside our class). seems fun aint it? but our class never had bonding. haha. we only bond to create trouble.

ok. seems like im freaking broke now. night outings are never cheap you see... haha. anw, there should be quite a number of movies i wanna watch the following weeks.

Australia
Bedtime Stories
~~Body Of Lies~~
DragonBall
Ip Man
Red Cliff Part 2
~~The Day The Earth Stood Still~~
Transporter 3
~~Twilight~~
YESMAN

that should be about it after checking out yahoo movies.

This is my highly anticipated movie for 2009. i really hope it doesnt disappoint me. hollywood pls do a good job out of the graphics and camera angles. dont be a screwup like AVP 2.

credits: wikipedia

dragonball dragonball dragonball dragonball dragonball dragonball dragonball dragonball dragonball dragonball dragonball.

2008-12-23T00:51:00.002+08:00

yay! im going korea after i psycho-ed my mum to bring me overseas. but i wanted japan lor. but fully booked. hais. she says she shall give up the idea of changing car just to bring me overseas. aww. so touched. comon la. like real. i swear 2-3mnths later, she will be driving a different car. HAHA!

im going bathe now to prepare for long hours of Left 4 Dead with my friends again. ITS ZOMBIE SLAUGHTER TIME!

2008-12-22T09:12:00.007+08:00

I AM ZOMBIFIED

just finished my report. haha. its like 9am now. yes, you are right if you guessed that i havent had a sleep at all. oh damn. im so tired la! 10am got company meeting. most prob im gonna get shoot over irresponsibility over the weekend. not as if i wanted it. please, cant i have a tight schedule for a freaking weekend? walao. its not even a working day la.

i swear to god. im extremely vulnerable to peer pressure. the reason that i just completed my report is not because it was long and tedious. its because of...

Left 4 Deadcredits: wikipedia

what the hell man. ~~played this game~~ been zombies/killed zombies with my friends. *snap snap* 7am alr! good game samuel. its really addictive and fun. hais. its extremely dangerous when you have work the following day and a report to finish. haha. me and kelvin skyped and we were laughing throughout the game killing our friends. aww. sadistically cute. haha! how i wished i can play more with you guys. haha! see how addicted i am? i know i hopeless alr.

oh man. guess i am gonna push my work to tmr. hope nothing cock up today. so i can eat snake at home and have a good sleep. OFF TO WORK NOW!

the smile on your face worth my life dear.

2008-12-21T13:46:00.006+08:00

JOBLESS!

well if everything doesnt go smoothly tmr, im going to quit the job. sick and tired of comapnies that cant even get their communications done right most of the time. like my boss said, "take it as an opportunity to learn." well. i dont know how many % of it he really meant it. to me its more like, "please help us get the job done, its not easy to get a replacement."

this could mean a one week of break before entering family biz, OR, an early enrolment into the family biz. (i doubt im ready for politics and waking up early. im nocturnal you see. (: )

2 schedules for the rest of the day. driving lessons at 6, meet gaming friends later. or driving lessons at 6, meet brother(s) later. i guess im more towards the 2nd option. 1st option is gonna dig a deep hole in my pocket again. all the filthy rich friends. zzz.

2008-12-21T05:58:00.008+08:00

just done around 1/4 of my report. tedious shit as usual.

saturday midnight movie

credits: wikipedia

yes it is. the day the earth stood still. a remake of the good old film back from 1951. well. its just a 3/5 movie. the poster looks awesome but the movie aint awesome enough. a little more action can bring about better results? watched this with vernon and weifeng. lol, we were practically kinda bored of the show till we joked about it in the cinema. stupid lame jokes bout many parts of the movies that only guys can think of. (:

went supper at jalan besar after the movie. curry rice. sinful supper i we had. its sinful cos after curry rice. we went to for tau huey. unfortunately no more tau huey. so we drank soya bean drink instead. with some fried food. i swear im going to turn into a pig soon. well someone is going to say that i am a pig alr. but im not yet a pig TOTALLY.

i ~~want~~ need you!

2008-12-20T18:44:00.003+08:00

OH YES. im so entering my family business soon. i wonder what kinda pay will i draw from it. hopefully its gonna be a huge sum so i can satisfy my cravings. haha!

i need to plan a holiday trip to japan/LA/both soon. all i need now is just company. if money is the problem, please do tell me at least. i will work it out. (: i believe i have some spare cash to let myself enjoy happily before i enter army next year. (which also means 2years of no long breaks/holiday trips) so comon guys. what say you?

2008-12-20T12:42:00.003+08:00

just came back from driving lessons. hais. driving with a driving instructor by your side is no fun at all, no doubt its safe.

received a timely phone call. that can totally ruin my laze-filled day.

boss: something cropped up at expo. you mind going down to take a look?
me: ok
wtf man. why the hell did i even said that? its saturday and im supposed to be off! argh.

im so off to take a early nap now. heh.

this feeling, it felt like i will never see you again anytime soon. it sucks.

2008-12-20T01:31:00.003+08:00

i suddenly.. just wanna drive. my only way to numb myself from all the stuff that hurts. i shant sigh and sigh anymore. i needa really get numb.

2008-12-20T00:51:00.003+08:00

just came back from kbox. ~~screamed~~ sang my lungs out with vernon weilong and weifeng. and when the bill came. 4 jaws fell to the ground. the events happened asd follows:

*bill flashed to me by the waiter*
me: oh fuck
wf: O.O *speechless*
wl: wow (soft)
ver: you all pay what you all have. not enough take from me 1st

lol. seems like vernon is the only one not affected by the bill. we totally felt like being slashed after paying the bill. all abit blur. haha! went for food at tampines 201. ordered mutton chop which cost $5. well when the food came, 4 jws dropped again.

wf: wah. everrything is so expensive today for us.

haha. totally agree. $5 for 5 small pieces of mutton. walao. got so expensive anot? omg la. hais. broke for the day and we went home after that.

im losing faith in everything alr. please dont go. i just wanna love once again.

2008-12-18T23:06:00.002+08:00

just came back. after having the craziest buffet ever. i ate 6.5 plates of pasta. well the plates are kinda small. so to add up. it should be around 3 normal plates of pasta you find at pastamania. haha. i even shocked the waitress. she asked, "are you sure? there will be a charge on food wastage." HAHAHA! and they were even kind enough to serve me 2 plates initially. after finishing the 2nd plate. she asked again, "so you sure you still want your remaining plates of pasta?"

lol.

it turned out to be hell when it came to the last plate. thankfully kelvin and wenda finished up for me.

twilight the 2nd time. the lovey dovey really got me into being a fan of twilight. awww. haha.

i have walked out of the past. i have changed.

2008-12-18T13:08:00.009+08:00

this post is gonna be long and its gonna be about 3 stuffs.

1st. my com failed me. thanks to the virus that came from my thumbdrive. where did the virus come from? office. what a bitch. i thought i didnt take good care of my com. i was so disappointed in myself. till i rectified the problem and traced it all the way back to office. ma de. so angry. made me reformat my com. almost totally destroyed my other 10 drives. 5 precious hard disk of information/videos/pictures/works. i should be more careful in future. stupid office noobs. pls love your com more. dont go spread your com virus to others.

on a side note. the songs on the right are songs that i listen to calm myself down when im driving without license. haha. its stressful to drive without license and speeding you see. (: soon i will be driving legally and illegally (due to speeding). heh. lets hope i get my license on jan 21, singapore will have an addition of road bully.

thinking bout me quitting school and asking bout my gpa. yea, my gpa is low. as low as 0.8. its due to my slackness. but hey, honestly speaking. i joined that course is seriously out of pure fun, and to learn my dream 3D. i thought i can carve a carrer out of it but it didnt turned out well. backstabbers are like everywhere. its such bullshit in this particular course of my poly. the nerdiest shit on earth are actually the nastiest backstabbers that you can ever find. fuck you to those who look down on me. pls take a look at yourself, your work and compare with the work i produce. you guys are always thinking of how to woo girls. go and do self reflecting, you should learn how to improve your work more la. bunch of gays. yuck. ( this lecture excludes those that are good to me (: ) go reflect on yourself. why are you poor/poorer than me, draw lousier than me, 3d model lousier than me. you think im born with it? sorry la. money is not my hard work but pls. i believe im alr getting a job with a pay that is higher than a uni grad's starting pay. let me flaunt to you. the moment i decided to quit school, 2 companies approached to hire me la goddammit. im even proud to say that they both tried to poach me with higher pay. so gays, pls go home suck thumb. yes im a fucking spendthrift but i know my limits. i dont spend out of my parents limits, but you do. (sorry, i wonder what is my parent's limit. lol.) for those who think im just showing off etc. pls. if you were in my shoes, you just very much wanna put them down so much. i believe i have a few buddies in my course that totally understand my situation. thanks guys for always siding me. i wont forget you guys de. (:

here is the work that i produced during my life in DGDD/SP.

dynasty warrior 6. zhao yun digital painted in photoshop.

mobtv mascot competition. digital painted in photoshop.

bmw 6 series. 3d modelled in maya. 1st 3d project.

audi r8. 3d modelled in maya. personal project (unfinished).

audi r8 rims. 3d modelled in maya. personal project (unfinished).

audi r8. textured and rendered. personal project.

just so love my works. more to improve on. but i aint got time for them anymore. ): but at least. i know how to 3d model and digital paint. i can do them anytime i like.its gonna be xmas soon. who will i go out with? oh man. how i wish juliet will be there for me. ): guys. loner detected here. pls come pick me up for xmas.

2008-12-17T23:38:00.002+08:00

went for kelvin bro's bbq ytd. it was his 20th bday. most probably the last bday we will celebrate together with our bunch of friends, more to come after army! drank damn hell lot la. lol. drank beer, liquor, champagne. all kinda alcohol also have. haha. poor kel drank till half drunk and vomitted due to the extreme mix we made for the bday boy. cake was smashed into his face. awww. but we still ate it. haha! what's worse, the cake is durian cake. durian and alcohol the deadly combo. lets hope nothing goes wrong with us.

after bbq which was around 11.45pm. vernon weifong weilong and me went for 2nd round at mid summer nite breeze at psr fisherman v. i totally reek of alcohol man. since its a long long one time thing, all the way man!

today, didnt go for work. was dead beat. totally. lol. so nth really happened except that i slept the whole day. (:

oh juliet come to me soon.

2008-12-13T14:46:00.005+08:00

great. i found decode for playlist. watched Twilight ytd with jeremy. (thanks bro for emptying your pockets with me to catch it)

credits: wikipedia

as usual. we will go and get ourselves a tub of ice cream each and a metal spoon, place it in our bag and smuggle it into the cinema. HAHA! its a tradition. (: This time we had Ben and Jerry! WAHAHAHA! (gen, its BNJ. jealous not?) i had strawberry cheesecake and jem had choc fudge. fortunately we were able to finish it. its, tedious. (:

its saturday! time to plan a little something to pass my weekends happily. ciaos!

2008-12-09T23:52:00.002+08:00

its time to blog. back from kukup trip. energy fully replenished after 2 days of ample rest.

i shall fill in the kukup madness not so soon. once i get all the pics.

just came back from work. and i believe i will be so dead for the rest of the week. heh. i wanna go out leh. sian. my hyperactive cells are acting up again. i have been lifeless. going home everyday after work with no activities. its darn boring man. urgh. i shall go plan an outing now.

to all the loners out there. you are not alone. (:

2008-12-05T23:31:00.002+08:00

im too tired to do an update. be back on sunday. off to kukup. update till then. together with sone little pics i took during my company's dinner.

2008-12-04T01:32:00.002+08:00

hungry. im so so hungry. now that i remember. i forgot to eat today. too engrossed with work. i am having extreme craving for mac. and my fucking auntie just screwed my mood by insisting me eating her shepherd's pie. sorry bitch. FUCK YOUR PIE. i wanna eat mac, all you could have done is to pass the message to my dad who was beside you and get me mac. now you made me waste $3 on delivery. you are a bitch. but thats ok, its only fair that i drove your car out without license and brought it for a stress test of 160km/h. BITCH! ^^

finally. gossip girl new episode is out. wee! means i have a purpose being at home again. heh.

2008-12-03T14:54:00.002+08:00

shagged. slept like a log. off to work soon. so many things to do later and tmr. ):

2008-12-02T03:00:00.002+08:00

okay this sucks. 629 mails unread already. i wonder when i will be free to actually free up my mailbox space. stupid junks.

2008-12-02T01:33:00.001+08:00

juliet, where are you? how are you doing? come, lets go. we shall elope to happily ever after.

2008-12-01T22:00:00.002+08:00

aint it fun to drive around? haha. yes it sure does.

feel so bored. is there any other thing that can colour up my life? work slp work slp makes life so dull and boring. bah thats it. im going overseas no matter what.

ITS PAY DAY! most rewarding part of work is pay day. trust me. however my only hope of going japan was crushed. my sis just came back from japan. walao. sian. go japan bo jio! its just great isnt it? everyone aroudn me is like going japan. what's wrong with this holiday? japan spree?

off to watch new episodes of gossip girl and 90210. WEE!

2008-11-30T23:12:00.003+08:00

gone case. nothing accomplished for the day. gotta do my irriating report again. zzz. i wonder what will i receive tmr, "why do so little this week?". SIAN BIG TIME.

im so looking for an easier job. this is killing me. need money and yet i dont like this job. argh! freaking dilemma.

2008-11-30T03:57:00.002+08:00

once again with ample time in my hands. i shall entertain to get past time.

came back from work at Sitex Show 08. so tiring man. poor partner of mine, haha had to keep raising his hand to show me his watch. (not that its nice, just to check time. :p) it sucks big time when i thought an hour has passed and he will just tell me " 15" aka 15mins passed only. ok done with work.

random rants.

sam: im gonna blog again. im too free nowadays

jeremy: yeah... too free...
jeremy: fucking draw ur designs can? u are the one who started the idea...

sam: my brain cant settle down
sam: its flying everywhere

jeremy: and u have passed the deadline i gave u... (cutting in while ranting as always)

sam: like a balloon. not tied and released

jeremy: dont give me this kind of excuse... deadline jiu shi deadline...

sam: arghhhhhh

jeremy: if u keep on like this... (starting engine...)
jeremy: then no need start lor...

sam: ok

jeremy: good job...

sam: stop
sam: haha ok

jeremy: keep it up arh... (as usual. sarcasms. die bitch!)

sam: i will DO IT
sam: TMD!!!

jeremy: good...

sam: pi gu can

hehe jem. noticed the last sentence. pi gu can. means. im gonna dilly dally again. heh.
ok la. will do it la. let me settle my work stuff 1st. it has been irritating me like a buzzing bee next to my ear.

FLASHBACK!

thanks kelvin! yesterday was wonderful. again, i drove without license due to temptation. lol. AND I WANT TO AGAIN! wahaha. *p.s* we still have petrol to burn, before we return it to make it like we never touched the car. hee.

random rants 2.

jeremy: stop digging your own grave.

sam: i think im too used to digging my own grave.
sam: im just wondering
sam: if it was done.. like.. really go and dig
sam: i own a graveyard alr. all the tombstones will be engraved with my name. died at different time. heh.

thats all for today. its alr. WOW. 4.13am. hope pris buys me back smth from Japan. no gay stuff. thx.

2008-02-09T06:12:00.000+08:00

sorry blog. have been neglecting you. sorry again, cos i gonna vent on u again.

argh. i miss you so. its new year and i feel so empty already. hais. didnt go for much visitings cos both side got grandparent pass away. so. no ang bao for me! stay at home. game game game.

im feeling sick eh! no1 cares! ):

hais. its kinda late now. i shall go off to slp.

hope u reply my texts tmr. cos i darn miss u so.
BYE!

2008-01-06T11:06:00.000+08:00

men shed not tears but blood. yeah, mebbe i din cried. but it definitely hurts at the heart. as though its bleeding profusely.

yeah i noe i suck. bye.

2008-01-04T01:59:00.000+08:00

apology to my dearest.

dear yt. sorry for being selfishly stupid. sorry for didnt think bout ur feelings. nv expect myself to hurt u this badly. if there is any way i could simmer u down. i definitely would. im just so sorry!

2008-01-03T11:26:00.000+08:00

so much to do yet so little time. zzz! have been drawing drawing and drawing. just cant get to draw the lips right at all. this is getting to be a turnoff oredi. T.T

lol. i finished 25 episodes of Code Geass in ONE DAY! wahaha. its not a bad anime anw. now that i dun watch anime for a long time and have been drawing realistic humans. i starting to look at anime differently oredi. it looks rather very simplified to me now. just like wat my teachers said about anime. =.=

looking for next anime to catch for inspirations! well. im back to drawing! *poof*

2008-01-01T21:31:00.001+08:00

haiyaya..... 1st day of new year.. guess wat? PS3 lens dead liao. GG. warranty time!

off to watch my 9 o'clock show and prepare for sch tmr. SUCKS!

2008-01-01T14:23:00.003+08:00

sorry. for the game. wait for it to dl and load. haha. i nv do preloader. =.=

AND MY BLOG IS SO GONNA LAG NOW. HAHA ENJOY LOADING!

2008-01-01T14:05:00.000+08:00

here is my flash game. pls try it out to test for bugs. feel free to tell me the bugs on the left! TAGBOX!

[edited] removed game from here due to loading difficulties. pls use the link below.

if it loads too slow, u can go to http://img181.imageshack.us/my.php?image=ragnabd2.swf

2008-01-01T12:49:00.000+08:00

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA! i got back my desktop!

AVP2
Always Very Pullshit

AVP2 sucks~! I'll tell you why. same old stuffs. destroyer of main storyline. bad ending. or rather, CRAP ENDING.

in AVP1, predators and humans teamed up. thats nv possible. cos humans are slaves of predator. and predator will nv seek help from humans or help humans due to the fact that their are too proud. one eg. they will suicide when they lose cos their motto: when we die, we make sure nothing survives.

in AVP2, seriously, i cant see shit. everythign is dark. keep catching a quick glimpse of aliens. ya i noe.. EFFECT EFFECT.... but, wth? wats the pt of the effect when i just see fast moving aliens keep zooming past left to right or right to left of the screen? and the ending is lame. watch it and u will noe. *hint* BOOM!

time for RED! cos its NEW YEAR! HAPPY 2008! oh. missed the countdowns, but WHO CARES! im still going to be 19 this year anw. one year away from my immaturality! haha.

2007-12-31T19:38:00.000+08:00

hopefully. tonight i am going to get back my desktop. hmm. i wanna start drawing my stuffs again!

2007-12-31T08:39:00.000+08:00

zzz finding a way to upload swf files.. urgh. any suggestions pl drop on my tagbox. ty!

2007-12-31T02:34:00.000+08:00

Enjoy folks! Alvin And The Chipmunks!

2007-12-31T00:41:00.000+08:00

wondering where can i upload songs to put in my blog.. hmmm. imeem?

off to web loitering!

2007-12-31T00:17:00.001+08:00

FEATURED POST OF THE WEEK

JASMINE, THE NAIL PAINTING ADDICT

wondering why? hahas. below shows why! and here it goes...

showing off her nails. how nice it is. then... removing it off for a brand new look.

starting off to paint the base coat...

look at jeremy, he is just switched off. and there he lies on the bed. LOL!

jasmine: whatever. im going to carry on painting my nails.

carries on painting the base coat...

when going home... at the bus stop. removing the newly painted nail.. AGAIN.

jasmine: wait. take a pic 1st..
me and jeremy: ok -.-!

showing off summore....

look at the smile while doing it on the bus.

in summary... she did nail painting at my hse and then bus stop and then bus. what an addict. LOL!

2007-12-30T18:20:00.000+08:00

little sneak for the upcoming post...

Jasmine, the nail painting addict.

stay tuned.. hehe.

`im so sorry jas. i just got toooooo bored. =) anw. u can get ur pics from here later ya? HAHA!

2007-12-30T18:13:00.000+08:00

thanksgiving moment!

thanks mum for many stuffs. although im not living with u anymore, u still treat me good. hope our relationship is much better now when we dont hv to see each other so much anymore. LESS CONLICTS! These are the great things u bought me:

Nokia N95
Wacom Intuos A6 Wide and A4
New high-end computer rig
Hong Kong trip
My bills
My art books

well. that sums up to nearly $10k oredi. and u are so willing to spend it on me within A MONTH! thanks alot mum. hope i wun be unfilial to u ever again. i noe recently u have to help ur brother pay for his fucked up fines. sometimes i wonber y u even bother to help, will he change? if he does, then ur $50k is worth it. if he doesnt. he can jolly well kiss my ass. i will curse the hell out of him and his wife. really. useless pair of couple. LEARN YOUR MISTAKES WILL YA!?

i love u mummy! AND TO HELL WITH THOSE THAT THINKS IM A MUMMY'S BOY. ya i am, SO WHAT?

2007-12-30T17:31:00.001+08:00

home. alone. and its kinda boring.

hope jasmine's alright, so we can go WEEEEEEEEEE~ hahas.

goodness. homework all is stockpiling lar. not doing anything much summore. what a procrastinator i am. (sorry if i spelled it wrong) well. cos i dun normally use that word on myself. HAHA! guess im 90% done with it. still have my character bible to do. hais. guess will be posting my drawings here and my flash game here soon for comments once im done with them.

off to prepare!

2007-12-30T06:42:00.000+08:00

ADD was fun lar.. the mc for the dinner was great. seriously. he can really make the whole ground fill with laughters. haha. guess hammeed and i will nv forget the catch phrase from other table to support their tablemates.

"gomalek" "gomalek" (go malek; malek is his name. lol.)

stupidly. we thought we need to support our representative too. his name was albert? and so we went,

"gobert" "gobert"

haha. it was nonsensical la. many hilarious games played there too for eg. the one with the balloon and the pump. haha. those hu went sure had a great laugh there at the big guy humping the pretty one. *damn*

and so as dinner ended. we planned to go chill. PLANNED. really. cant understand this word at all when i think of that day's incident. we all went home as the "how"s flew around. "eh how" "dunno la, u all decide" DAMMIT. can u all dun throw these 2 catch phrase around. this is never going to work IN FUTURE AND NOW!

period.

thats all bout ADD. any more. i oso cant rmbr. (: and JASMINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u are taking such a long time. lol!

`thats all folks.

2007-12-30T06:32:00.003+08:00

since im free now... lets take a kickoff from ADD!

the gals...
the guys.. excluding me! cos i hvnt reach. was late.

the mask we were supposed to wear.. we didnt apparently.

kinda retarded here. thanks for the candid huh audrey.

2007-12-30T02:40:00.001+08:00

this shud be it. simple and easy one. hahas. need some rest for now. will update bout Annual Dinner and Dance tmr and some other stuffs that i can rmbr. ciaos.

2007-12-30T01:27:00.000+08:00

cant believe it. im actually motivated to blog again for money! AHAHAHAHA! okie. shall start of with cleaning up with blog and some renovations. catch up alot soon!

2007-03-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

ok got my TV early in the morning.

however my day was unpleasant. thx to my mum. wat an ass bitch.

went supermarket mai cai! hahas. for myself to eat at home. basically its packets and packets of instant noodles. -.- hahas. although not nutritional... but it is tasty ok!

beloved HDTV. hahas. now it is my com screen!

2007-03-01T00:58:00.000+08:00

blog time. yes. finally got time. hmm. i shall section-ize my post. hahas.

i bought new TV!!!! pictures will be uploaded when its delivered. wahaha. its a Sony 32" LCD HDTV (black). costed me $1599 though. *NO HEART PAIN* well. since my mum dun wan buy. after i asked for about 1 year+ liao. hais. wat a fucked up bitch hu always say later and nv do it. nvm. i got it MY way.

planned and discussed with jinghan bout my new com rig. hahas. anw ps ar.. not so free to locate my fren. will find when u are about to buy ok? new rig:
Gigabyte SLi DQ6 + Intel Core 2 Duo E6600
XFX 7900GTX XT edition 512mb ddr3 x2
Kingston HperX DDR2-800 2GB Kit x2
hmm. for hdd.. shall consider bout my budget liao. well i wun expect it to come so soon. the mboard hvnt even reach singapore yet.. =\ sad.

bought a 2gb high-speed memory stick pro duo for my psp. was preparing for my hack for psp. but. hais. cant hack. must wait for a while till my firmware version can be downgraded. it was over-patched. damn.

lastly. i feel broke. time to find ways to store cash again. woohoo.

2007-02-20T02:51:00.000+08:00

its been a month! (since i last blogged) well about lah..
why i came here today? haha. cos i felt that wat happened today is worth blogging.
here it goes...

went out in the afternoon wif charlene and caught a movie. (skip skip)
reached home. and greeted the visitors that came my hse. as we were greeting, one of my mum's fren, or rather a FEW, cos the whole family came, stared at charlene weirdly. and we went back into my room. and she said.

char: omg. dat woman looks like my auntie.
me: huh. really ar? looks like oni ma. wait, she stay at yishun area ar?
char: YA! HAR!!!! DIE!
me: haha. okie. that shud be ur auntie then.

cos my parents knew bout us but her parents dun. and its just so unfortunate that singapore is so small. her aunt and uncle happened to be my parents good friends. now let just hope thier mouth dun get enlarged and leak everything to her dad. (well, it might be good and it might be bad)

that's all folks. world is interesting. HAHA!

2007-01-31T22:35:00.000+08:00

argh. help. really am so switched off!!! sian. really wanna get my ass down to do something. bro bro bro! another outing! im going to scold all the mother fucking assholes hu din turn up for the buffet. cb! kelvin, u bastard, our tai chou summore. jackson, u bloody cb, ur birthday we hold celebration for u, u dun wan come! jasper, u oso buey steady 1. the rest i dunno wat ur reasons are. but. walao. u all ar. can come together as a GROUP bo? wats more impt than a proper outing which we long didnt have liao.

and yes. im looking for a fucking online game to grind. any1 noes any. pls introduce to me. im just so bored. omg. since jas ticked everything already. i guess i hv nth else more to say. and so im off!

(of all the demons. i wud wanna be a balrog.) weifeng, may we combine powers. wahaha. to hell withy ur gargoyle!

2007-01-11T11:04:00.000+08:00

1st post of the year. this blog so dead liao. no longer had the motivation or time to blog anymore. kinda bz with my personal stuff. its early n the morning and im going off to meet my dar. hey bros. we need a little time for ourselves. and kelvin if you are reading this. i repeat. WE NEED TIME FOR OURSELVES. bros. if u guys read. pls organise some outing. i will fully support it. we haven had much fun together lately. time to hold some BBQs somewhere ya?

anw. i gtg. so cya guys around soon.

2006-12-13T17:17:00.000+08:00

im severing ties with my mum. DO NOT ever mention about my mum to me. i have NO mum. hope i can prepare the official papers soon.

2006-12-10T00:18:00.000+08:00

my blog is...
REVIVED

had no time for blog lately. partly gaming and partly parting my time for my darling. (: well ytd (saturday), was the funeral wake for my grandma. cremated. feelings of all the family members are undescribable. ups and downs. all i, or rather we could do is just to bid her farewell and wish her all the blessings.

then the whole family sat down for a family matter meeting. blah blah. skip the parts that are not related. its confidential anw. but it came down to the family business. i nv thought of taking over. its just too great of a burden to carry. the business that started from scratch by my grandpa. then passed down to my uncles. well, its more than obvious. i and my two other cousins are asked to take over the family business in future. im keen of cos. but im worried at the same time. i dun wanna see it close down. 4 companies. Beng Cheng Auto Machinery, Beng Cheng Metals, Lim Metals, and 1 more german named company (i dunno how to pronounce nor i rmbr). the pillars of the family. hais. dunno wat to do. take over? then i wud hv to put down my ambitions. dun take over? wat if it crumble and close down. zzz. next year i wud hv to decide to take wat course for my poly. but how how how. now this family business thing cut in into my life. its time for decision making again. hais. so mafan.

period.

hahas. and darling. thx for everything k. happy moments, infuriating moments. hahas. both oso are gd la har... we cant be perfect anw. no matter how much i scolded u. no matter how pissed i m. this feeling i had for u nv shook. it remained stable within me.

oh. i forgotten to write bout my sentosa trip with me dear. hahas. was so fun ok! although everything will be ready soon next year blah blah. which kinda irritated us. but we oso did not hv enuf time to finish the things there. we went mt.faber to take cable car to sentosa. went food court at the beach to eat. went merlion. went for luge and sky ride. went sky tower. went underwater world. went fort siloso. went cinemania. we oso went to hv sakae at siloso beach. and went home by cable car. xP was so FANTASTIC. but i hv to watch my $250 depart from my wallet IN A DAY. SAD! although we missed the musical fountain. and our pink dolphin.. hahas. there is always a next time when everything construct finish! yippee! hahas. i notice something irritating bout sentosa nowadays. THEY FORCE U TO TAKE FOTO! then they ask u go counter see whether u wan anot. u say dun wan, they pester u to buy. WALAO. 1 printed foto $10 - 25. SEOW BO. the ink made from blood issit. so ex. =.= hahas. bt was fun la, ignoring those picture taking thingy.

`that's all folks. thanks for tuning in to my life report. haha!

p.s. im back to demonlogy~

2006-11-22T20:05:00.000+08:00

long time no post. lol. 1st thing to post. is of cos the aim of the fruit of my labour. gonna work wif vernon, my bro at a barricade company. hahas. not bad. if any1 wan join me. pls lookup for me. need to be strong. no gu niangs pls. $50 per day. 9am - 6pm. 1hr break. OT might apply (more pay).

target com rig:

Motherboard: Gigabyte GA-965P-DQ6
Processor: Intel Core 2 Duo E6600
VGA: Gigabyte 7800GTX x2
Ram: Kingston 512mb DDR2 800mhz x4

`so sorry darling for the many many ups and downs.

2006-11-04T01:10:00.001+08:00

charlene told me some things and ceilings started to crumble.

look! im supporting the ceiling with all my might. damn!

after hearing from many about wat dat ms.D did. in case u were wondering wat is D? dun bother thinking about it. it is not someones name. it simply stands for DISGUSTING.

lol? try to get as many guys to like her as possible? kinda fat hope to me. even if the guys fell for her. i bet the guys would be digusted with her after a short period of time. and i emphasise the word BET. cos from reliable sources, i heard dat she BET that she would get guanlong to fall for her. -Laughing My Foolish Ass Off Rolling On The Floor- lmaorotf. pls la. dun sia suay can. i BET guanlong wudnt even have sex appeal for you. dun even mention beind SEDUCED by you. YUCK! pls know what kind of characteristic you have before you coem to a conclusion that pple will fall for u, like DEFINITELY. pls leh. u are an excrete!

oh ya. and also. according to reliable sources. she said girls are all cheap, fan jian! and well normally we name situations similar to ms.D's, verbal irony. let me define it for you.

verbal irony
form of sarcasm (parallel to her views on girl). this irony occurs when what one says acutally means oneself but not the others.

for more info, please visit jasmine's blog.

2006-10-27T15:23:00.000+08:00

it went official on 26-10. (:

2006-10-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

i decided to rant everything in this bloody damn fucking post. i wonder why some pple are just so childish. i shudnt be pissed but i am! how can someone be so ignorant of everything. first its in sch. the bloody attitude that pisses me. she borrow things WITHOUT asking and doesnt return it to the particular person herself. why? paiseh ar? tmd. its like. shudnt sum1 return the things and at least say sorry i borrowed without asking u. altho its oredi wrong but its basic courtesy. oh ya. i forgot. how cud she hv that kinda coutesy when she walks like a ah lian. (oh ah lians are so much prettier than her) and ~~talk~~ shout to pple as if she is ordering a cup of coffee from jurong to pasir ris. oh cant blame such lousy characteristics... she is the only girl on earth that i would shout "FUCKING BITCH" at in front of a whole goddamn class.

i planned everything for the day. hoping that it wud go smoothly. and nth goes wrong. i wanted her (not this fucking bitch im ranting at) to have a decent meal for being there for me. and also ytd when i did not have money to eat she did not even hesitate and paid for me. so i tot i could plan the night for her properly after a tiring day. guess wat? a bunch of freaking "its" hid her bag and dun let her go. wat? so childish can. well if she doesnt wanna go i nth to say. but is she wanna leave and u guys stop her? wtf? and wat. spoils the mood and everything? knn la pple. although u all dunno anything.. but u guys still spoiled my plans and everything. so fuck u guys.

well i would always say this ok.. money is not a problem ok. wat for have a life wif tons of money and no happiness. its the effort dat i put in that is destroyed by some fucker's stupid acts or rather ACT.

you bitch. FUCK you.

2006-10-22T00:53:00.000+08:00

1st thing.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. hahas. yes you! dearest yiting. hahas. (:

-end.

went out to study again... same person. hahas. i learnt how to fold star wif straws in 5mins! hoho. stupid charlene still say i wun make it 1. lols. i proved u wrong ok! xP went shopping and thx for helping me out. hahas. im bad at gifts.

*yawns* i go slp le. TIRED!

2006-10-19T22:26:00.000+08:00

yesterday...

went vivocity to study. hahas. of cos not alone. intended to go to starbucks there. had my meal at carl's jr again. hahas. the fries + beef sauce is cheaper than mac fries lor! and its so nice. so much summore. i cant finish the meal again. wat a waste. hais. thinking of it, im starting to drool again. then went starbucks after walking a few rounds... starbucks table was LOW... and it kidna sucked. so we changed location. went to Haagen Dazs. and again. kinda weird la the table and its ex! and so we ended up at swensens. lol! ordered spritzer and ice cream. and we studied. was ticked by a manager there. "its not encouraged to study here." =.=! hahas. so we went to rooftop garden after we finish eating. stayed there till late.

today....

was a @#$%@#! day... no la. was fine. had Os prac. hoho! easy lor. pendulum! hahas... charlene was telling me, "i hate pendulum, better dun come out." and today i was prediciting. i hv a feeling its going to be pendulum today. and aha! it is. so easy can. did the experiment to find gravity. and my answer was 10.1m/s^2. no nid worry liao. hahas. chem was.. hmm. okok la. just abit worried later write wrong. but was ok. none of the experiment failed me. ^^ saw lailai in front mixing all the chemicals after she is done. lol. nice anyway. she got a bright lime green solution and i was o.o!

oh ya. hahas! went tm to watch death note AGAIN. in case u are thinking i seow. but its nice ma. at least its nice for anime/manga lovers. saw yiting at tm and she was hiding from me. HAHA! dunno y just got a feeling that she was around. and i saw a girl in siglap uni hide here and there and i find it weird. so i looked. ITS HER! hahas. and she gave the face of "oh shit." =.=! hahas. yiting u lied ar... no la. its ok. i understand. (: not so unreasonable yea?

and there goes 2 fun and interesting day for me. thx goodness they are positive. (x

`and i wondered. if i am making use of pple again....

2006-10-17T23:02:00.000+08:00

woot. back from so many hours of revision... absorbed quite alot. HEHE! k im tired. so i shud take a rest by watching one episode of One Piece! (:

anyway. hoho... someone turning sixteen lo. 5 more days yea? and seems like ur dare is coming closer and closer. and i need to go get prezzie for you liao. i will get one after my Os prac on thurs ba. (: im not that bad alright. hahas.

`am i fooling around again?

2006-10-17T15:59:00.000+08:00

wtf... stupid sch. wat the hell la. early in the morning wanna spoil my day. tmd. wtf is wrong wif this sch la. tell my mum today got science prac for Os and i nv go. GO FOR WAT LA. machiam i noe how to do bio lidat. crap. fucking cb. make me hv to get up and quarrel wif my mum early in the morning. DIU LEI LOU MOU!

period.

waste of my energy to type. no brainer anyway... y bother scolding. i doubt they wud even understand wat i saying. zzz. stupidest mistake ever to call a parent of a student hu takes DnT instead of BIO and tell the parent today got bio prac and he NEVER GO! zzz. gah.

going out to study soon. i hate my neighbour. hope his house explode. no cant. his hse above mine. shit. okie. hope the flooring spoil. pipe leak. zz. of all times, why must he renovate house now!?!?!? urgh! sick man.

`i wonder your importance. not so... =\

2006-10-16T02:39:00.000+08:00

hmmm. done with the new blog skin. tot the other one was not so nice. (: went out with dad today. i watched Death Note with my dad. hahas. my dad is so hip ok. watch this kinda movies in jap which derived from mangas. ya and so he said he wanna go his friend's house for a while. and from today on. i conclude adults "a while" ok... FUCKING CB LONG WHILE AR! wat a while... a while to them = 2hrs. wapiangs. fantastic.
but nvm, he's still my dad. (:

period.

tmr no sch! heh. but i think i need to go sch ar... got consultation. ): dunno wat to bring eh. die. stupid charlene. ask vj bring wat end up ask her she nv tell me. how great.
"unlike you... only noe how to bully ppl =("
ok i wun bully you anymore k? =.=
"you say one arh... hahas. go back on you word and you'll find all your pillows missing."
ok. i wun. i love my pillows. hahas!

BUT! you sabo me! you bully la. wat i bully. wakaos. now how.. im wondering tmr bring wat. practically i did NOTHING for english leh. =.= lets see. i shall go there empty handed ba. lol! sorry vj!

2006-10-16T00:26:00.000+08:00

here is a bloody long list of how-to-use-death-note for pple who are curious bout Death Note. they are the RULES of Death Note. hehehe... (i hope i have one.)

Volume One

How to Use: Part One
-The Human whose name is written in this note shall die.
-This Note will not take effect unless the writer has the person's face in their mind when writing his/her name. Therefore, people sharing the same name will not be affected.
-If the cause of death is written within 40 seconds of writing the person's name, it will happen.
-If the cause of death is not specified, the person will simply die of a heart attack.
-After writing the cause of death, details of the death should be written in the next 6 minutes and 40 seconds.

How to Use: Part Two
-This note shall become the property of the human world, once it touches the ground of (arrives in) the human world.
-The owner of the note can recognize the image and voice of the original owner, i.e a god of death.
-The human who uses this note can neither go to Heaven nor Hell.

How to Use: Part Three
-The time of death is written within 40 seconds after writing the cause of death as a heart attack, the time of death can be manipulated, and the time can go into effect within 40 seconds after writing the name.
-The human who touches the Death Note can recognize the image and voice of its original owner, a god of death, even if the human is not the owner of the note.

How to Use: Part Four
-The person in possession of the Death Note is possessed by a god of death, its original owner, until they die.
-If a human uses the note, a god of death usually appears in front of him/her after he/she uses the note.
-Gods of death, the original owners of the Death Note, do not do, in principle, anything which will help or prevent the deaths in the note.
-A god of death has no obligation to completely explain how to use the note or rules which will apply to the human who owns it.

How to Use: Part Five
-A god of death can extend his life by putting human names on the note, but humans cannot.
-A person can shorten his or her own life by using the note.
-The human who becomes the owner of the Death Note can, in exchange of half his/her remaining life, get the eyeballs of the god of death which will enable him/her to see a human's name and remaining lifetime when looking though them.
-A god of death cannot be killed even if stabbed in his heart with a knife or shot in the head with a gun. However, there are ways to kill a god of death, which are not generally known to the gods of death.

How to Use: Part Six
-The conditions for death will not be realized unless it is physically possible for that human or it is reasonably assumed to be carried out by that human.
-The specific scope of the condition for death is not known to the gods of death, either. So, you must examine and find out.

How to Use: Part Seven
-One page taken from the Death Note, or even a fragment of the page, contains the full effects of the note.
-The instrument to write with can be anything, (e.g. cosmetics, blood, etc) as long as it can write directly onto the note and remains as legible letters.
-Even the original owners of the Death Note, gods of death, do not know much about the note.

Volume Two

How to Use: Part Eight
-You may also write the cause and/or details of death prior to filling in the name of the individual. Be sure to insert the name in front of the written cause of death. You have about 19 days (according to the human calendar) in order to fill in a name.
-Even if you do not actually possess the Death Note, the effect will be the same if you can recognize the person and his/her name to place in the blank.

How to Use: Part Nine
-The Death Note will not affect those under 780 days old.
-The Death Note will be rendered useless if the victim's name is misspelled four times.

Volume Three

How to Use: Part Ten
-Even after the individual's name, the time of death, and death condition on the Death Note were filled out, the time and condition of death can be altered as many times as you want, as long as it is changed within 6 minutes and 40 seconds from the time it was filled in. But, of course, this is only possible before the victim dies.
-Whenever you want to change anything written on the Death Note within 6 minutes and 40 seconds after you wrote, you must first rule out the characters you want to erase with two straight lines.
-As you see above, the time and conditions of death can be changed, but once the victim's name has been written, the individual's death can never be avoided.

How to Use: Part Eleven
-If you lose the Death Note or have it stolen, you will lose its ownership unless you retrieve it within 490 days.
-If you have traded the eye power of a god of death, you will lose the eye power as well as the memory of the Death Note, once you lose its ownership. At the same time, the remaining half of your life will not be restored.

How to Use: Part Twelve
-You may lend the Death Note to another person while maintaining its ownership. Subletting it to yet another person is possible, too.
-The borrower of the Death Note will not be followed by a god of death. The God of Death always remains with the owner of the Death Note. Also, the borrower cannot trade the eyesight of the god of death.

How to Use: Part Thirteen
-When the owner of the Death Note dies while the Note is being lent, its ownership will be transferred to the person who is holding it at that time.
-If the Death Note is stolen and the owner is killed by the thief, its ownership will automatically be transferred to the thief.

How to Use: Part Fourteen
-When the same name is written on more than two Death Notes the Note which was first filled in will take effect, regardless of the time of death.
-If writing the same name on more than two Death Notes is completed within a 0.06 - second difference, it is regarded as simultaneous; the Death Note will not take effect and the individual written will not die.

Volume Four

How to Use: Part Fifteen
-The God of Death must at least own one Death Note, that Death Note must never be lent to or written on by a human.
-Exchanging and writing on the Death Note between the gods of death is no problem.

How to Use: Part Sixteen
-If the god of death decides to use the Death Note to kill the assassin of an individual he favors, the individuals life will be extended, but the god of death will die.
-The dead god of death will disappear, but the Death Note will remain. The ownership of this Death Note is usually carried over to the next god of death that touches it, but it is common sense that it is returned to the Great god of death.

How to Use: Part Seventeen
-Only by touching each other's Death Note can human individuals who own the Death Note in the human world recognize the appearance or voice of each other's god of death.
-An individual with the eye power of a god of death can tell the name and life span of other humans by looking at that person's face. By possessing the Death Note, an individual gains the ability to kill, and stops being a victim. From this point, a person with the Death Note cannot see, the life span of other Death Note owners, including him/herself. But, it is not really necessary for the individual to view the life span of him/herself is nor other Death Note owners.
-The god of death must not tell humans the names or life spans of individuals he sees. This is to avoid confusion in the human world.

How to Use: Part Eighteen
-It is prerequisite for the Death Note used in the human world that a living god of death makes sure that the humans in the human world uses it.
-It is very difficult to consider that a god of death who has possessed a human could die, but if he should die, the Death Note that he brought into the human world will not lose its power.

How to Use: Part Nineteen
-In order to see the names and life spans of humans by using the eye power of the god of death, the owner must look at more than half of that person's face. When looking from top to bottom, he must look at least from the head to the nose. If he looks at only the eyes and under, he will not be able to see the person's name and life span. Also, even though some parts of the face, for example the eyes, nose or mouth are hidden, if he can basically see the whole face, he will be able to see the person's name and life span. It is still not clear how much exposure is needed to tell that name and life span, and this needs to be verified.
-If above conditions are met, names and life spans can be seen through photos and pictures, no matter how old they are. But this is sometimes influenced by the vividness and size. Also, names and lifespans cannot be seen by face drawings, however realistic they may be.

How to Use: Part Twenty
-Those with the eye power of the god of death will have the eyesight of over 3.6 in the human measurement, regardless of their original eyesight.

How to Use: Part Twenty One
-The individuals who lose the ownership of the Death Note will also lose their memory of the usage of the Death Note. This does not mean that he will lose all the memory from the day he owned it to the day he loses possession, but means he will only lose the memory involving the Death Note.

How to Use: Part Twenty Two
-When an individual with ownership of more than two Death Notes loses possession to one of the Death Notes, he will not be able to recognize that Death Note's god of death's appearance or voice anymore. The god of death himself will leave, but all the memory involving that Death Note will remain as long as he maintains ownership of at least one other Death Note.

How to Use: Part Twenty Three
-The god of death must not stay in the human world without a particular reason. Conditions to stay in the human world are as follows:
I. When the god of death's Death Note is handed to a human.
II. Essentially, finding a human to pass on the Death Note should be done from the world of the gods of death, but if it is within 82 hours this may also be done in the human world.
III. When a god of death stalks an individual with an intention to kill them, as long as it is within 82 hours of haunting them, the god of death may stay in the human world.

How to Use: Part Twenty Four
-The god of death must not hand the Death Note directly to a child under 6 years of age (based on the human calendar).
-The Death Note must not be handed to a child under 6 years of age, but Death Notes that have been dropped into the human world, and are part of the human world, can be used upon humans of any age with the same effect.

How to Use: Part Twenty Five
-If you just write, "die of accident" for the cause of death, the victim will die from a natural accident after 6 minutes and 40 seconds from the time of writing it.
-Even though only one name is written in the Death Note, if it influences and causes other humans that are not written in it to die, the victim's cause of death will be a heart attack.

Volume Five

How to Use: Part Twenty Six
-If you write, "die of disease" with a specific diseases's name and the person's time of death, there must be a sufficient amount of time for the disease to progress. If the set time is too tight, the victim will die of a heart attack after 6 minutes and 40 seconds after completing the Death Note.
-If you write, "die of disease" for the cause of death, but only write a specific time of death without the actual name of disease, the human will die from an adequate disease. But the Death Note can only operate within 23 days (in the human calendar). This is called the 23-day rule.

How to Use: Part Twenty Seven
-If you write, "die of disease" like before with a specific disease's name, but without a specific time, if it takes more than 24 days for the human to die the 23-day rule will not take effect and the human will die at an adequate time depending on the disease.
-When rewriting the cause and/or details of death it must be done within 6 minutes and 40 seconds. You cannot change the victim's time of death, however soon it may be.

How to Use: Part Twenty Eight
-You cannot kill humans at the age of over 124 with the Death Note.
-You cannot kill humans with less than 12 minutes of life left (in human calculations).

How to Use: Part Twenty Nine
-If you have traded the eye power of a god of death, you will see a person's primary life span in the human world.
-The names you will see with the eye power of a god of death are the names needed to kill that person. You will be able to see the names even if that person isn't registered in the family registration.

How to Use: Part Thirty
-The number of pages of the Death Note will never run out.

Volume Six

How to Use: Part Thirty One
-If someone possesses more than one Death Note, by visualizing the victim, then writing down the name in one of the Death Notes and the cause of death in the other, it will take effect. The order however, is unimportant, if you write down the cause of death in one Death Note and afterwards, write the name in the other, it will take effect.
-This can also be accomplished by two Death Note owners working together. In this case, it's necessary that the two touch each other's Death Notes.

How to Use: Part Thirty Two
-If a person loses possession of a Death Note, they will not recognize the gods of death by sight or voice any more. If however, the owner lets someone else touch his Death Note, from that time on, that person will recognize the god of death.
-In accordance with the above, the human who touched the Death Note and began to recognize the gods of death's sight and voice, will continue to recognize it until that human actually owns the Death Note and subsequently looses possession of it.

How to Use: Part Thirty Three
-The owner of the Death Note cannot be killed by a god of death who is living in the world of the gods of death.
-Also, a god of death who comes to the human world, in the objective to kill the owner of the Death Note, will not be able to do so.
-Only a god of death that has passed on their Death Note to a human is able to kill the owner of the Death Note.

How to Use: Part Thirty Four
-If a Death Note owner accidently misspells a name four times, that person will be free from being killed by the Death Note. However, if they intentionally misspell the name four times, the Death Note owner will die.
-The person whose name was misspelled four times on purpose will not be free of death by a Death Note.

How to Use: Part Thirty Five
-There are male and female gods of death, but it is neither permitted, nor possible for them to have sexual relations with humans. The gods of death also cannot have sex with each other.

Volume Seven

How to Use: Part Thirty Six
-When regaining ownership of the Death Note, the memories associated with the Death Note will also return. In cases where you were involved with other Death Notes as a well, memories of all the Death Notes involved will return.
-Even without obtaining ownership, memories will return just by touching the Death Note.

How to Use: Part Thirty Seven
-You will lose memory of the Death Note when losing its ownership. But you can regain this memory by either obtaining the ownership once again or by touching the Death Note. This can be done up to 6 times per Death Note.
-If the 6 times are exceeded, the person's memory of the Death Note will not return and they will have to use it without any previous memory of it.

How to Use: Part Thirty Eight
-Humans that have traded for the eye power of a god of death will see a person's primary life span, and will not be influenced by the Death Note. If the victim is killed using the Death Note, the remaining lifetime of that victim will be provided to the god of death.

How to Use: Part Thirty Nine
-Humans that have traded for the eye power of a god of death cannot see the name or life-span of humans that have already passed away by looking at their photos.

How to Use: Part Forty
-Whenever a god of death who had been in the human world dies and the Death Note is left behind and is picked up by a human, that person becomes the owner.
-However, in this case, only the human that can recognize the god of death and its voice is able to see and touch the Death Note.
-It is very unlikely, but if by any chance a god of death picks up the Death Note, that god of death becomes the owner.

How to Use: Part Forty One
-The names you see with the eye power of a god of death are the names needed to kill that person.You will be able to see their names even if they arent listed in a family register.

How to Use: Part Forty Two
-It is useless trying to erase names written in the Death Note with erasers or white-out.

Volume Eight

How to Use: Part Forty Three
-The use of the Death Note in the human world sometimes affects other human's lives or shortens their original life-span, even though their names are not actually written in the Death Note itself. In these cases, no matter the cause, the god of death sees only the original life-span and not the shortened life-span.

How to Use: Part Forty Four
-If a Death Note is owned in the human world against the god of death's will, that god of death is permitted to stay in the human world in order to retrieve it.
-In that case, if there are other Death Notes in the human world, the gods of death are not allowed to reveal to the humans that Death Note's owner or its location.

How to Use: Part Forty Five
-If the Death Note that the god of death owns is taken away by being cheated of her gods of death and so forth, it can only be retrieved from the god of death who is possessing it at the time. If there is no god of death, but a human possessing it, the only way that the god of death can retrieve it will be to first touch the Death Note and become the god of death that haunts that human. Then wait until that human dies to take it away before any other human touches it, or whenever the human shows a will to let go of it.

How to Use: Part Forty Six
-As long as the god of death has at least once seen a human and knows his/her name and life-span, the god of death is capable of finding that human from a hole in the world of the gods of death.

How to Use: Part Forty Seven
-There are laws in the world of gods of death. If a god of death should break the law, there are 9 levels of severity starting at Level 8 and going up to Level 1 plus the Extreme Level. For severity levels above 3 the god of death will be killed after being punished.
-For example, killing a human without using the Death Note is considered as the Extreme Level

Volume Nine

How to Use: Part Forty Eight
-Losing memory of the Death Note by passing on the ownership to another, or by abandoning its ownership will only occur when someone is actually killed using that Death Note. You will not lose memory of the Death Note, for example, if you merely owned it and had not written anyone's name. In this case, you will not be able to hear the voice or see the figure of the god of death any more. You will also lose the eye power of the god of death you traded with.

How to Use: Part Forty Nine
-The god of death will not die from lack of sleep. Moreover, gods of death do not really need sleep. The meaning of sleep for gods of death is essentially different from humans and is merely laziness.
-Gods of death living in the human world that have passed on their Death Note shouldn't be lazy especially, as they are required to see the death of the human, but it is not that they are not allowed to sleep.

How to Use: Part Fifty
-Only 6 Death Notes are allowed to exist at a time in the human world. Of course, the Death Note that the god of death owns does not count. This means only 6 gods of death that have passed on their Death Note to humans can stay in the human world.

How to Use: Part Fifty One
-One god of death is allowed to pass on Death Notes to only 3 humans at a time.
-It is possible for a single god of death to hand out up to 6 Death Notes, for example, by handing 3 humans 2 Death Notes each.
-In other words, one human could own all 6 Death Notes.

How to Use: Part Fifty Two
-However, if a seventh Death Note is owned by a human in the human world, nothing will happen even if used.

How to Use: Part Fifty Three
-In the event that there are more than 6 Death Notes in the human world, only the first 6 Death Notes that have been delivered to humans will have effect.
-The seventh Death Note will not become active until one of the other 6 Death Notes is burned up, or a god of death takes one of them back to the world of god of death.

Volume Ten

How to Use: Part Fifty Four
-The Death Note will not take effect if you write a specific victims name using several different pages.
-But the front and back of a page is considered as one page. For example, the Death Note will still take effect if you write the victims surname on the front page and given name on the back.

How to Use: Part Fifty Five
-In order to make the Death Note take effect, the victims name must be written on the same page, but the cause of death and situation around the death can be described in other pages of Death Note. This will work as long as the person that writes the Death Note keeps the specific victims name in mind when writing the cause and situation of death.

How to Use: Part Fifty Six
-In occasions where the cause and situation of death is written before the victims name, multiple names can be written as long as they are written within 40 seconds and the causes and situations of death are not impossible to occur.
-In the occasion where the cause of death is possible but the situation is not, only the cause of death will take effect for that victim. If both the cause and the situation are impossible, that victim will die of heart attack.

How to Use: Part Fifty Seven
-When you write multiple names in the Death Note and then write down even one cause of death within 40 seconds from writing the first victims name, the cause will take effect for all the written names.
-Also, after writing the cause of death, even if the situation of death is written within 6 minutes and 40 seconds in the human world, the situation will only occur to the victims whom it is possible. For those where the situation is not possible, only the cause of death will occur.

How to Use: Part Fifty Eight
-In the Death Note you cannot set the death date longer than the victims original life span. Even if the victims death is set in the Death Note beyond his/her original life span, the victim will die before the set time.

How to Use: Part Fifty Nine
-By manipulating the death of a human that has influence over another human's life, that human's original life span can sometimes be lengthened.
-If a god of death intentionally does the above manipulation to effectively lengthen a humans life span, the god of death will die, but if a human does the same, the human will not die.

How to Use: Part Sixty
-A human death caused by Death Note will indirectly lengthen some other human's original life even without a specific intention to lengthen a particular person's original life span in the human world.

Volume Eleven

How to Use: Part Sixty One
-After a god of death has brought the Death Note to the human world and given its ownership to a human, the god of death may have the right to kill the human using his/her own Death Note for reasons such as disliking the owner.

How to Use: Part Sixty Two
-Even if a new victim's name, cause of death, or situation of death is written on top of the originally written name, cause of death or situation of death, there will be no effect on the original victim's death. The same thing will also apply to erasing what was written with a pencil, or whitening out what was written with a pen, in attempt to rewrite it.

How to Use: Part Sixty Three
-Once the victim's name, cause of death and situation of death have been written down in the Death Note, this death will still take place even if that Death Note or the part of the note in which it has been written is destroyed, for example, burned into ashes, before the stated time of death.
-If the victim's name has been written and then the Death Note is destroyed in the middle of writing the cause of death, the victim will be killed by heart attack in 40 seconds after writing the name.
-If the victim's name and cause of death have been written and the middle of writing the situation of death, then the victim will be killed within 6 minutes and 40 seconds via the stated cause of death if the cause is possible within that period of time, but otherwise, the victim will die by heart attack.

How to Use: Part Sixty Four
-No matter what medical or scientific method may be employed, it is impossible for humans to distinguish whether or not the human has the eye of power of a god of death. Even gods of death cannot distinguish this fact, except for the very god of death that traded his/her eye power with that human.

How to Use: Part Sixty Five
-The following situations are the cases where a god of death has brought the Death Note into the human world is allowed to return to the world of gods of death.
I. When the god of death has seen the end of the first owner of the Death Note brought into the human world and has written that human's name on his/her own DEATH NOTE.
II. When the Death Note which has been brought in is destroyed, like burned, and cannot be used by humans anymore.
III. If nobody claims the ownership of the Death Note it is unnecessary to haunt anyone.
IV. If, for any reason, the god of death possessing the Death Note has been replaced by another god of death.
V. When the god of death loses track of the Death Note which he/she possesses, cannot identify which human is owning the Death Note, or cannot locate where the owner is, and therefore needs to find such information through the hole in the world of gods of death.
VI. Even in the situations 2, 3 and 4 above, gods of death are obliged to confirm the death of the first owner and write down that human's name in his/her Death Note even when he/she is in the world of gods of death.

How to Use: Part Sixty Six
-In the world of gods of death there are a few copies of what humans may call user handbook for using the Death Note in the human world. However, the guidebook is not allowed to be delivered to humans.
-It is perfectly okay for gods of death to read the guidebook for him/herself and teach humans about its contents, no matter what the content may be.

How to Use: Part Sixty Seven
-Some limited number of Death Notes have white or red front covers, but they would make no difference in their effects, as compared with the black cover Death Notes

Volume Twelve

How To Use: Part Sixty Eight

-All humans, without exception, eventually die.
-After they die, the place they go is MU (nothingness).
-Once dead, they can never come back to life.

2006-10-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

Cute Poison

3 H2SO4 (l) + Ca3(PO4)2 (s) ---> 2 H3PO4 (s) + 3 CaSO4.2 H2O (l)

hahas. oh wells. wasted some time.

`i need time.

2006-10-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

fcuk.
stupid neighbour. timing very good. of all times when i wanna study, go renovate the house. EH WALAO LA! the whole year i at home rot do nth but watch tv and computing, dun wan renovate. when i wanna study then come renovate. zzz. f-a-n-t-a-s-t-i-c.

currently looking for the equation for Cute Poison with nic. lols. shall post the full equation later. its so cool!

2006-10-14T05:55:00.000+08:00

this is for you, stupidgirl.
i break free le ok? dun worry! all chilled. (: sorry din go take a look at ur blog. now den i saw wat you wrote. hais. i cant believe its always you to be there to slap me back into reality. thx. appreciate it! sorry if i hv been nuisance to you all along. hehes. let us both chiong for our Os! hope we can still back each other up! wahahas. well your birthday is coming soon le hor... HEHEHE... you know wat to do... (x lets take it as a break for both of us k? till then, we will not stop mugging and mugging. hais. i hv been pathetic. really sorry to disappoint you again and again eh...

well, i made up my mind. thx to the 3 girls who have been there for me again and again and again and again. owe you girls alot alot!

*p.s* stupidgirl, i will sing birthday song for you! hahas. i make sure you go deaf. xP

2006-10-14T00:38:00.000+08:00

woah. had a few amazing days... just dunno how to blog it all out. okie okie. gimme a sec. let me reorganise wat have happened for the past few days around me!

the day b4 ytd...

well. i forgot to fill in the part that we got SCREWED. totally man. mission failed. ): brought kettle but and i and navin enjoyed our noodles when mr bernard came. lols. sucky. its so embarrassing to hv the kettle confiscated and left in the atrium. oh wells. spoiled day. but after that was great. thx to germs.

ytd...

i ponned sch. dunno why but my body just wun get up. so. pon! at home studied a LITTLE bit. hais. heard there was many crying in the class. met char peng aka charlene to go vivocity in the night to catch a movie. hahas. how great. we get to try the new cinema eh! and so we watched... You Me and Dupree. total lameness. but was entertaining. quite a number of hilarious scenes. so. ya 2 thumbs up. hahas. show ended at 11.30! heng ar. managed to catch the last train. hahas. oh yeah. had my dinner at Carl's Jr. the burger was HUMONGOUS. i shall post the pic. hmmm....

doesn't seem big in the pic. but i swear my mouth had to STRETCH to grab a bite. darn it. so big!

charlene was so afraid that i mention the CHAR word. and so i asked without knowing, "what's charboiled?" lol. she almost spurted out the coke. =.= yeah. the burger was charboiled. wtf is that? hahas. and she started to hate Carl. and the movie main character was named Carl. LOL. screwed.

today!

was late for night study. omg la. had pple to wake me up yet i still overslept. =x wat a pig. we went to play at the playground after that. was kinda crowded... lols. and so i took a pic.

pic kinda blur... hahas. insufficient lights. cant blame me!

ended the day exhausted.

period.

im gonna miss you guys man. everyone i know. even though i hate you or whatever. doesnt matter. as long as YOU come across my life. i miss you. you especially.

okie... shall post some cute pics i took over the days! here it goes.

isnt this cute? i wan the snail! kawaii!!!

my graffiti work. hehes. it says.. RaineX. (:

work work work... and MORE work. ): O lvls coming. WORK HARD guys!

and oso...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMES!! good old buddy. happy 18th. (:

(as i said happy birthday to him....)
Be humble and you will not stumble [53 more days] says (12:35 AM):
nice
Be humble and you will not stumble [53 more days] says (12:35 AM):
lol
Be humble and you will not stumble [53 more days] says (12:35 AM):
so sweet
Be humble and you will not stumble [53 more days] says (12:35 AM):
tml kiss u
rаıиех. nostalgia; dead tired. hell yes i am. says (12:35 AM):
hahas
rаıиех. nostalgia; dead tired. hell yes i am. says (12:35 AM):
really!
rаıиех. nostalgia; dead tired. hell yes i am. says (12:35 AM):
okie

lols. just kidding. no way! (:

THANKS GIVING

my class...

i love you guys man. this is the most fantastic class i ever had. so rebellious. so funky. khai... the crazy one. hope you wud be a great drummer some day. meiyi... hope your attitude change alright? dun so short tempered like me. navin... stay happy always. but dun let pple trample over your head too. alvin... smoke less! jeremy... have faith in everything! you endure well. unlike me. jasmine... get into lasselle (i dunno how to spell) and do well! jennifer... dun be dat blur anymore! junjie... control more. dun be influence easily. hadi... show off doesnt bring you anywhere. so stop that. wenjie... sometimes. controlling wat you splurt out isnt a bad idea. dun be like me. trouble that comes out from my mouth. zheng hong... you need to work smartly. not trying to suan you. but. if you can make it to express. you have that talent. charlene... you stupid! hahas. no la. study hard!

and i hope. we keep in contact somehow. 4E = troubles + rebel + fun. i would miss you guys darn bad. never had so much fun. although class bond isnt there. we still play together like nobody's business. farewell 4E!

and ya.. lastly. i wun forget you. your existence changed many of me. thank you for transforming this devil into a normal human. although many things happened. shitty ones, sweet ones. all is kept down my memory lane. so many sorries and so many thank yous to tell you. but i doubt i wud hv the chance to SAY it to you liao. and i mean say verbally. face to face. farewell my friend. i hope you achieve good results next week when you get back your papers. start to love seriously alright.. dun hop rships and hurt many along the way. i think i wud let you decide if you want me to just drift off from you totally or not. im always here for you to say, "hey come back. give me a hand here." no prob. always. 24/7 like 7-11. -im like the wind for you. instantly appear in front of you when you need me. alright?- cheers to our future.

`im learning to smile already... thank you guys. i really miss EVERYTHING.

2006-10-12T19:37:00.000+08:00

i feel....
poor.
hurt.
numb.
crazy.
lazy.
exhausted.

wat a fantastic life here. oh wells. gotta improve it! but now isnt really the time. hardly able too. so hectic here and there. in fact. its chaotic. so many holes to fill yet so little time. so i rather wait till there is plenty of time. (:

ytd...

went to play pool! yayness. hahas. but sucked. yea sucked at it ytd. i dunno wats wrong. i think my eyesight is getting worse? when i aim. it seemed to me rather blur. hais. gone case. my dearest perfect eyesight... i noticed sumthing. the table had lots of holes. oh well. no wonder my frens said. valley 8 sucks. HAHA! YES IT SUX. x=

went to catch a movie! but then. no nachos eat. walao... hais. watch Stay Alive. not so scary anyway... hahas. kinda stupid too. but if you get scared easily.. this movie suits you! "samuel... u owe me one ren qing" "samuel... i hate you..." "samuel! why i agree to watch this!" i heard these phrases over and over again. someone was chanting beside me while i was enjoying the thrills.. hahas!

period.

so yeap. had a great day. thx! im going out soon. so. oh wells...

`regret.

2006-10-11T00:17:00.000+08:00

words could not describe how i felt at that time. regret stung me like the pain of a slitted wrist.

now. jealousy stained me. i dont feel good at all. not even the slightest bit. even doing anything that is going to get my fullest attention, i would be distracted.

probably this isnt the ending i wanted. not this kind of goodbye. even so. i dont even wish for a goodbye. u slapped as i still smile.. smiled with tears flowing down my cheeks. just to let you know i am ok, and i didnt want you to back down and say sorry.

many encouraging words are told to me. some gave me faith. some destroyed hopes. but i chose a difficult path. to have faith. i am learning... learning to control. learning to be able to take it. i admired those that you admired. i envied those that were admired. im trying my best. my very best.

i would not forget the vow i made. its still here. engraved deep into my heart. so what if im being laughed at for being so stupid and devoted. so what if im being despised for being that nasty. i am me. i know would not trace back into those footsteps that hurt again.

those three words. perhaps i said it too much. but everytime its said, i meant it. it is the urge of saying it before i do not have the chance to anymore. i know this day would come. i expected it. those hardships i went thru, polished my resolve to love you more. times that you slogged and sacrificed, touched me and brought me into tears inside.

everything shot right at me so fast that i cant take it. you lied... you should know what you lied to me about. im not an ignorant.

i lost my way already. but the feelings remain. i love you.

`my keyboard is stained crimson with the blood from my hands.

2006-10-10T22:12:00.000+08:00

tmr is purely INSANITY. *smirks* (: lols. i wud be bringing electric kettle tmr and pple wud wear slippers to sch! so crazy. wat a catastrophe. lols! planned to eat cup noodles during lesson. hahas.

just came back from nite study. bathed. ow lar. my toes. play soccer and i sprained my toes. ): did 1 SEQ. handed in. hmm not bad not bad. hahas. YAYS! the rest of the time... play play play.

period.

tmr going pool ler! weee! goodie goodie! hahas. so long no touch those cues sticks.. love it! hmm i think now i shall go do my stuffs. oleh. cheers for tmr~!

`im sorry.

2006-10-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

TIRED! anticipation of exams are so exhausting. so mafan. so stucked at nowhere. cant do anything! actually is can but its up to you whether you wanna go do some other stuffs anot. but no time oredi. hais. so constraint so stressed up. its about time i say goodbye to this beloved com again. for some time....

period.

its oredi 10. so fast. 1 day burnt. 2 more weeks to Os. yosh! hmmm hope next week everything goes well. pool on wed, movie on thurs or friday. so, wed to fri is OUT! 3 days off from these muggings and relax my brain.

how i wish i had Luffy's character. happy go lucky. die then die. everything oso GOGOGO! never go back on his words and is always good to people around him. hais. dream dream dream again. oh wells. doesnt matter. POOL ON WEDNESDAY! wee.

`gone for good. dead for good.

2006-10-08T13:58:00.001+08:00

thx to everybodie for ~~making~~ trying to make me happy. ya.. im trying my best liao... but this feeling im having simply surpresses everything. so ya... i will still TRY!!! -period.

soon.. i will be putting this blog under construction again! yes. blog skin changing... theme. hmm. it shall be KAIZOKU (pirates)! hahas. One Piece i shud say to be more specific. (:

please dun do anything stupid. u are not a disappointment to everyone eh... as long as u smile. everything wud be washed away. trust me. (:

`i will still be there. promise.

2006-10-06T22:26:00.000+08:00

HAZE is a killer. damn it.

today was kinda hyper. very? boos. no lantern. lol. dunno where to find after the nite study. and before i forget to mention wat made me so hip today, was kipmun's new word "EXCRUTING".

excruting =/= excrutiating to us. but now. IT IS! hahas. k la. end of this BAD-ness.

anyway.. im seriously in no mood to smile or laugh now. mebbe this is going to be another sad post. mebbe... im utterly out of words. its just wat i feel. i dun understand a single rationale behind it! im really... i really... DUN FEEL RIGHT. its just weird and rumbling inside me. i really wan this resolved in a proper manner and not u running away ok!

`drowned.

2006-10-04T16:27:00.000+08:00

took my pills... its like 4th day liao. still not showing improvements of my conditions.

hais. i got stabbed again. deep into the middle of my heart after hearing wat jem told me. im jealous. pure jealous the whole freaking day. i really just wish u wud talk to me again. everything i said that were harsh really had no intention at all. i just cant bear to do it. u think im that bad ma? we were quarrelling that day and the moment u said ur eyes cant see a thing. my heart really sank and melted. i was angry and i was suddenly soft hearted again. its not i did not wanna care. im just stucked in between 2 emotions.

i had enough of putting this freaking strong front la ok. all i want now is just for u to talk and treat me normally. im not being girly or wat ok. im just following wat my heart is telling me. im not doing this on purpose to gain ur sympathy. seriously im lost of words and lost totally.

`i yearn. everything to be normal.

2006-10-02T17:30:00.000+08:00

had a big quarrel wif mum ytd. well. had some talks. my mum said i was rather rowdy and moody lately. ya. and so everything came to a bottomline, to the psychologist.

bah. i was so reluctant to go. that makes me sound like a mad man or something. but no choice. forced to go. and so i went.

sorry guys if i was bad to u... i din noe i was under depression at all. mebbe thats the reason behind my "life games" earlier on. but im ok. im fine now. got medicine to take to keep it under control for the month. well doc says 1 mnth shud be ok liao. do more sports. =.= ahhh... just dun treat me like an alien can liao! pls! well i feel better saying out now. hahas. *medicine kinda SUCK. so mafan...*

anyway guess wat. consultation fee, $500. wtf? thats 1 handphone!

well... there is still you that i wanna apologise to. and i owe you the biggest apology. i wished i knew of this earlier and i wudnt be so harsh on you. im so regretful now. but now i still see you smile everyday like i used to see you in the past before knowing you, im more than happy liao. i just wish you would talk to me again. really dun like that empty feeling. you are the only person that i feel comfortable chatting wif... so ya. and all the best for your exams. (:

`im not complaining about the pain anymore, cos i found the joy of loving you.

2006-09-28T21:56:00.000+08:00

nostalgia. those images that haunts me.

2006-09-27T17:45:00.000+08:00

hiatus. yes it is. well, i took some time off today. walked around the neighbourhood where we onced went, places we sat to chat. it is then i realise memories hurts. its so painful for me lar. u might think its a lie or im not a man or whatsoever. but nah. doesnt matter. everyone has their own characteristics.
if life is like a computer typing out a document. i would definitely choose to backspace. backspace till where all the sweet moments are. im not someone hu can easily press the enter ok. its not easy for me to get on by clearing the page. i noe im bad tempered, im nasty. im only like that when im forced to the corner ok.
well. its harsh for me to say those things just to chase u away out of my life for good. i tot this is the best ending till i felt the emptiness. its so empty.
it might be true that love is about compromising. but there is a limit to everything. not as if i hv to compromise with anything rite.
argh. nvm. the least i know is im taking all the pain everyday. its weird that i rather take in the pain then to let go and forget. maybe till then, i might let it off when i meet that special someone. that someone who can remove them.

`everything might disgust you right now. but to me, they are still as precious as ever. memories.